GROWTH & REFLECTION
A SELF PORTRAIT PROJECT
Blue Cone Studios Art Walk
Imagine grabbing a Pepsi bottle & shaking it up real fast and then letting the lid go. That's how I can best describe my year in 2016.
One chaotic bubble after the other until an uncontainable explosion occurred. That explosion was /my/ final ending to a toxic, unhealthy relationship that I'd lost myself into for over 5 years. Even now, it has taken me over a year to process things I allowed myself to go through & to understand the person I had turned into.
'Growth & Reflections' originally began with 1 idea & has slowly manifested itself into an ever-growing project. For many years, I was constantly pushing away and hiding from my thoughts. I was unknowingly in a mentally abusive relationship that was a major cause of my anxiety. He was someone who made me extremely uncomfortable with my body. He'd grab me for his enjoyment, not mine. He'd talk about our sex life loudly even when I'd ask him not to. There were so many times /I tried/ to explain the difference to him but the conversation always came down to it being my problem.
The flowers represent emotional growth & love.
The mirrors represent my reflection on myself in order to grow.